Adulthood

I remember when I was younger and my older sister was just starting out on her own (with her b/f and new baby) and my dad used to quote this song to her all the time. I understood that he was telling her that she had wanted this for so long, now she has it, and he kinda thought it was funny and took the opportunity to tease her (as he does to all 3 of his children at every available opportunity).

But I never thought about it further than that. Now, I am "an adult", technically. I'm 22 years old, married and a mom. It's funny how you spend a whole lot of time waiting and wishing for things to happen, and when they do it's just never as good as you thought. Don't get me wrong, it's not bad, I love my husband and my baby so much it hurts! But, when your picturing how awesome these things will be when they finally happen, that's just it. You're thinking about how awesome it will be. You're not thinking about the reality of it, your wishing for it.

I've recently realized that I am never satisfied. (I originally wrote "with time" at the end of that sentence and then realized that wasn't the case) When I am out, all I want to do is be at home, when I'm at home, I feel like I haven't been out of the house in weeks. I feel like I never have time to get all of the house work done, and then when I have the time to do it, I don't want to do house work, I want to relax, or catch up on homework or, or, or....I feel like I always want to do something and then when I'm doing it, all I can think about is how I'd rather be doing something else.

Now not everything. I mean, when I'm reading fanfiction, I'm glad that's what I'm doing, and I'm most likely not thinking about anything else. Or spending time with my family, (they're the best btw, I don't care how awesome yours is ;). Things like that, I'm definitely there, not somewhere else or wishing I was somewhere else. Just when it comes it the day-to-day things that I'd rather not be doing but need to be done just the same.

And I was just wondering. Is it just me? I am a huge procrastinator, really, is that where this comes from? Or is it the way everyone feels? I was just thinking about this today and wondered, am I the only one that thinks of a million and one things that I could probably do before I finish the ever growing pile of dishes in my sink? Dishes...don't even get me started. o . O

Bow♥